26.04.21

Tell me why we’re here for your funeral

Before you got to be here for our weddings

Before we got to be here for yours

Before you got to be here a little longer

I guess God knows why.

Tell me why you had to suffer the way you did

The purity of your sweet angelic soul

And a smile so infectious & innocent

Juxtaposes the paralysing pain in your body

A crippling pain that we now carry for you

I guess God knows why.

And tell me why we never got a proper goodbye ?

Why the kindest souls tend leave first & so often ?

Why it had to be you? Why Ahmed? Why Seray? Why Morris ? And now why YOU?

And why there’s even names missed out?

Why we feel forsaken in the cold times like this ?

And yet still only have God to turn to for comfort .

I guess only God knows why.

Now tell me why when we lay you to rest

It feels like only the beginning of a process

I wish to dismiss, in order to turn back the hands of time, where you wouldn’t have to face this.

And please just tell me why

A whole year has now gone by

And I’m still treating this whole thing as a lie

Because it’s harder to accept you’re gone, than to deny.

And on the ugly days, I still reflect & cry

I don’t see it as my birthday, just the day you died .

I guess God truly knows why.

But I know in order to heal, we must understand.

Why we looked at & promised you , you’d be fine

Meanwhile God had a greater plan.

A plan for you to enter Heaven where people of your heavenly kind belong.

God always knows why.